Oh boy am I homesick today. You know that homesickness feeling where you just can't stop crying and you feel utterly totally miserable.. yep, thats me. I dont like to use my blog to share stuff this personal but thats where things are at, at the moment and this is about being real.
My Dad's surgery yesterday was major, he's even part Australian now, thanks to the wonderful donation of ligament from a donor (who would have thought!). He has had a really bad night and is being monitored by ICU. He's a really tough cookie though and will be fighting hard to heal and get back on his feet.
My Mum is staying really positive and said she is certain today will be a much better day for him. She has wonderful support and I am ever so grateful to those people.
I am a mess. I just want to be there, if nothing more than to give them both a hug. This is by far the hardest time I have experienced living in another country, away from family. My eyes are like leaky taps that won't stop running. Sadly, we aren't in a financial position for me to hop on a plane and go back and also I let something very stupid happen... my passport has expired. So today Im sending it off to get renewed.
It has made me realise that we need to make plans to go home. The experience of living in Australia is something I will always treasure. It has been an amazing journey. But at the end of the day, we are Kiwi and our family is important to us (more than twice a year visits).I want our children to experience the joy of having their grandparents, cousins, aunties and uncle nearby.
Well, thats me for now... no pictures, total sad sack.. watch this space...