Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Without the rain....

there would be no rainbows.....

Life has been a bit rough around these parts for the last 8 months and this week its all getting to be a bit too much.

It started with a breast lump, then the floods in Queensland, followed quickly by an international move. The kids and I have been back in NZ for 6 months and still no job for hubby. So we've made the decision to head back across the ditch, to where the jobs are. Six months of single parenting has taught me one thing, I don't want to voluntarily be a single parent.

On Friday it is 3 months since we have even seen my hubby. He has missed my 40th, my daughters 10th and my surgery. All really significant things you need your hubby around for.

This week has probably been the roughest so far. Surgery on Monday for the said lump and a gastroscopy to try to figure out all my food intolerances.  Never expected to be so sore from the Gastroscopy, totally expected the breast pain. Nice big fat ugly stitches and nice big huge bruises where they took 8 attempts to get an IV into my arm.

Today Im sore, tired and struggling to get through the school holidays with so much going on. And to top it all off my daughter has tonsillitis and bronchitis. 

All I can say is I am ever so thankful for my Mum and Dad!! Boy are we going to miss them when we head off again.

Sheesh.  Lucky we get HEAPS of rainbows here because there sure is a lot of rain at the moment.

(I don't usually share this much personal stuff on here but hey, sometimes you just gotta let it out).


Helen said...

Oh, Leonie. What a tough decision to make. And how awful to just not be able to make it work in our beautiful country. I've had some severe homesickness the past couple of days - and looked at options for going home - but we simply can't afford it. :( HUGE hugs for you, I hope you recover well from your surgery and your lovely daughter starts feeling better soon. Stay strong. xo

Tanya said...

yep, sometimes you gotta let it out. I too wish you well in your recovery from surgery and hope you see lots of rainbows

CHD said...

All the best with your recovery and move. Rainbows are a great symbol of hope. Hope things keep getting better. Cx

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Widge said...

far out Leonie you've had heaps on your plate. I would struggle enough being away from my husband let alone ALL the other stuff you have had to deal with!!
Praying for lots more rainbows and sunny days for you and your fam xoxox

Fiona said...

I can't even begin to imagine how I'd deal with just one of those things, let alone all of them together. I wish you a speedy recovery from surgery and the strength to organise the move back. So sad it didn't work out as planned.

Flying Blind... said...

Sending you lots of good thoughts and wishes on rainbows, all will be great in the end, stay strong xxx

Rebecca said...

Oh my goodness that's so full-on! Wish I could help in some way....prayers now for Gods strength, healing and peace in the midst of it all! You're incredible! Xox

makeitgiveit said...

so much love.... may the journey unfold with beauty and delight in unexpected places and may you be a 'proper' family again really soon... xxxx

PaisleyJade said...

You have had an amazingly tough ride alright! So thankful for parents and I hope the sun comes out to shine super bright for you from now on. xoxo

Cat said...

rainbows abound
((hugs)) to you Leonie
you are an amazing woman of great strength
you will figure out all this food stuff and you will again find your family back together soon
you have done these past 8 months and done them well
you can be really proud of yourself
blessings love and light to you on this, another change

Elizabeth said...

(((((((((hugs))))))))))), so sorry things have been so tough... what a horrible six months :-(.

Hope the move goes smoothly, and you settle back into being a proper family quickly.

Praying for a quick healing.

Sue said...

Leonie, a trouble shared is a trouble halved and if you share it with all of us we'll all help you carry it. Good luck with the move, work, health , family and all things important.... hugs to you.

Sammy said...

Oh lovie, thanks for sharing. Glad that you just let it out. It's been MASSIVE for you! Massive. And I think you are doing really well.
Hope you feel better soon and see your hubbie even

tartankiwi said...

Wishing you and your family a safe journey through this rough patch. I can't imagine how difficult it would be going through all of that with your husband in a different country.
Sending lots of love, hugs and rainbows in your direction.

Posie Patchwork said...

If you ever need a shoulder to cry on or tips on how to cope, just ask, really, i'm pretty tough. I just got news yesterday that my husband won't be released from Brisbane until January 2014, making 4 whole years we have to spend living 1300km apart. He will question it, don't worry, we planned for 2 years, but the extra trip to Afghanistan has pushed it out to 3 years, but 4 - crazy, he'd come home with all 3 girls in high school & our son in year 5, that is missing a whole lot of their childhood!!
Sending you lots of love, hugs & happiness, if there is one thing, you do bond with your children more when you don't have to be a wife also. It sucks but like your husband being away from you, it's for the family. I have to be his cheerleader even though it breaks my heart. Love Posie

Sima J said...

You have had such a rough time of it - I can't believe all the stuff you've been through. You are SUCH a tough cookie and underestimate yourself muchly! You have been an AMAAZING mother to you kids while you battle it out seemingly alone.
SO awesome that you can see the rainbows through all the rain .. the end is in sight! You won't know yourself heading 'home' to aussie and will be sorely missed here *hugs*

kendylsPlace said...

What a horrible time you've been through, and what an amazing attitude. Hope the rainbows come out for you super soon!

Jaz from Treacy Travels said...

Thank goodness for those rainbows I say!!! Keep positive and enjoy those kids. Even when they are ill. I'm certain you'll see the rainbow soon. Hugs to you from this bloggy follower!! xxx

Meghan at MNM's said...

Oh hon you have been such a trooper through such a tough year. And sometimes it is really good to let it out and share it with kind and encouraging souls who all love you whether in real life or from afar.

You are an inspiration love and we're all cheering you on from the sidelines.

Praying for a speedy recovery, and I can't WAIT to give you a hug in person real soon!

xxx Meg

Kylie said...

Hugs to all. I had no idea - sorry you are going through all of this alone. Are you heading back up this way? If so we really really have to catch up before I pack my bags and move.

katepickle said...

oh man what a rough few months.... here's hoping that things improve and are all (or at least mostly) sunshine and rainbows from here on in!

Neetz said...

I've looked out this poem I used to have in the front of my diary, thought you might like it... xx

"When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit."

Love loads!! You'll be a WHOLE family soon, all together, full of love ..... xxxxxxxx

TrulyJaded said...

Lots of love & hugs for your recovery. xx

Lea said...

Oh parents are THE BEST! My mum and dad are a huge support to me too. Hoping the rain stops at your place very soon:)

Penny said...

What a tough time Leonie! So thankful for parents ay. Sorry we're losing you again but I'm sure there are lots of good things in store ahead x

Simoney said...

Oh leonie! I missed this post!
What a year its been so far?!?!?!
And yet here you still are throwing rainbow parties and sending off softies to christchurch.
You are AMAZING.
So glad we got to meet and become freinds in real life.
Looking forward to hanging out with you at that bloggy get-together next month...
let me know if you still need me to put anyone up; I have it marked in my "brain diary"